[11 Dec 2009|04:18pm] dear_you [yumdidlyiscious] Dear you, We haven't spoken in 10 years. I know this marker possibly means nothing to you, but you haunt me in a way. I chose the path away from you. I regret the loose ends. Do you think there were loose ends or was it always very clear to you? Where the end was? I wanted to be a friend to you if you needed one, but your family did not want me to. They asked me to step aside. Do you even know this? It hurts me to think you might hate me. And my memory now I'm sure is very different from what you remember. I imagine us meeting somewhere by accident. I imagine my big smile winning you over again. Healing old wounds. I am afraid what you may have heard about Dan. It would have sounded bad, though it really wasn't. I want you to know he will never be the man you are. I want you to know that I regret the way we lost touch. I know you aren't the Facebook or myspace type so there is no chance of me ever reaching you. I know you don't want to talk to me because I'm easy to find and you've never looked. This hurts. Not even just to check up on me? Not even to see if I'm happy...which I'm not. And I have the urge to tell you this. I have the urge to talk to you all the time. You don't spend four years of your life with someone and then act like they don't exist. Or do you? Is that what I did to you? Do I deserve this silence? This abyss of the unknown? She told me not to call you anymore. Said it was for the best. Was it? I should never have listened to her. I should have checked up on you a little bit at least. I looked for her too just to see if I could find out how you are. I am afraid that you've committed suicide. Only because you tried when we split. I am afraid that is why you never look for me. Because you may be dead. This would be worse than you hating me. I want to know dammit! Where are you? Are you ok? Are you in love? Have you a family? I write this here because I have nowhere else to put it. I cannot explain my melancholy to my husband. I cannot explain my fears to my friends. I am not the first person to have lost someone they cannot find. Something happened. An old love has found me. My first love. He looked for me. He found me. Though I am married with a child now, he moves me. In ways I can't explain and in ways he shouldn't. I want to talk to you about this-- I can't understand why I want to talk to you so much. I have dreams about you all the time. You haunt me. We haven't spoken for ten years. Happy Anniversary. 2 comments|post comment

[10 Dec 2009|11:24pm] efagz [badtabloid] ( You are about to view content that may not be appropriate for minors. ) 54 comments|post comment

[11 Dec 2009|04:01pm] dear_you [nesshin_chan] Oh, and one more: Dear Michael Jackson's dad, You're a dick head. An ass. A soulless bastard. And you're riding on the tail coat of your son's death. He was a human being. An icon to millions. Granted, he became lost later in life, but that doesn't mean that he didn't mean a ton to a lot of people out there. And gives you no right to defaecate all over his memory by claiming a right to other people's money and sympathy because of the tragedy of his death. You gave him nothing but heart break in life, and you still haven't changed. Get over yourself. Sincerely, Me. 1 comment|post comment

[11 Dec 2009|02:22pm] dear_you [chendamoni] Dear Professor, Post the grades already. The exam was a week ago today AND it was computerized... so, I know you don't need to grade anything. Chop chop, hurry up! Sincerely, Student 1 comment|post comment

[11 Dec 2009|02:01pm] dear_you [hielofbullets] Dear universe, Way to be a dick. I now have the perfect thing for a nice romantic date: up to 2 free nights at the Foxwoods Resort in a deluxe room, and at the same time I become single with absolutely no prospects to even attempt to date. Irony can suck it. Sincerely, Me Dear you, I'm not happy about how this turned out, rather hurt and sad to be perfectly honest. At least you're talking to me more often now, so that's good I guess. I keep hoping that you'll suddenly realize what a mistake you might be making, before it's too late. still with love, Me post comment

[11 Dec 2009|06:17pm] dear_you [fadeoutfeelings] [ mood | excited ] Dear you, Eee!! So excited! Eighteen days until we go! Except you're not half as excited as I am, concidering you live there and where you're spending Christmas. Can't wait to here about your trip, wish I was there too. You're the bestest friend ever for inviting me for New Year, tis going to be amazing. Thank you! :D - me post comment

[11 Dec 2009|10:56am] dear_you [hell0helicopter] [ mood | tired ] Dear future partner, Please find me soon, before I despair of ever meeting you. I'm afraid I'm giving up on love. I can feel your skin underneath my hands, and your hair between my fingers, and your bones when I kiss your shoulder. But my bed is cold, and my heart is empty, and I've cut out all the parts that make me think of you. I sewed in new ones, that are better suited to loneliness. 2 comments|post comment

[11 Dec 2009|03:12am] dear_you [apathetic_blue] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | Last Call - Brazilian Girls ] dear you.. I know you have a girlfriend.. and I have a boyfriend.. but why do we talk to each other the way we do? We've known each other for a long time. And we've done silly things like go out to waffle house at 3 am after talking all night online.. and just ended up sitting awkwardly in silence. Like we were both hoping to have the guts to say or do more, but never did. Im just saying..I want to see you more. Ive been thinking about breaking up with my boyfriend for a while now [for many reasons]... But I dont want to interfere with your relationship. I dont want to be that girl. But I cant help for years I have had feelings for you.. and you obviously have some for me as well. What should I do? This is killing me. I really want to know your thoughts. Sincerely, Kelly post comment

[10 Dec 2009|11:47pm] dear_you [moonchild10] Dear You, I'm horrible at flirting and dropping hints. So one of these days I'm going to just have to come up to you and say "I'm in love with you". I hope you're ready. love (times a million), that girl post comment

[10 Dec 2009|11:57pm] dear_you [theanimequeen] [ mood | sleepy ] ( You are about to view content that may not be appropriate for minors. ) post comment

[10 Dec 2009|11:39pm] dear_you [sweetsorceress] Dear You, Sitting down in the shower, comic books, ninja turtles, our birthdays, our libidos, mint green mustangs, time standing still for BOTH of us when you come into me, inspiration, art, your killer smile, my ability to get stuck in the most convenient of places (like your arms), are all reasons we should be together. Love, Me. 4 comments|post comment

[10 Dec 2009|09:29pm] dear_you [moonchild10] Dear You, I don't want to slap you right now... But I'm getting there /: love?, that one girl post comment

[10 Dec 2009|09:52pm] dear_you [lvette] Dear me - Stop talking to non living objects. Although everyone thinks you're crazy, that doesn't give you the right to make it worse. - you know who post comment

[10 Dec 2009|09:47pm] dear_you [heeyxlove] dear you, i miss you, without you i feel so completely alone. i need you. since you left, things with me aren’t the same. i’m a complete mess. i have no one to trust. i can’t sleep, no matter how tired i am, and i’m constantly crying. why did you leave me when you know how much i need you? how is your life perfectly fine with us not being friends, when mines pretty much crumbling from right under my feet? ,ow don't you realize you're making me do this to myself? Maybe you just don't care… i’ll bet that’s it.. every single time i try to talk to you about it, about us, you change the subject. all i need from you is closure, that’s the thing that would make me feel better. that’s the only thing that will make me better, and you're too much of a bitch to give me something that small.. thanks for the lies, sarah. post comment

[10 Dec 2009|09:16pm] dear_you [apathetic_blue] [ mood | anxious ] [ music | The Recluse - Cursive ] dear you, just invite me out already.. your hints are obvious.. just do it already. i would be more than willing to drive 40 minutes to have some company.. <3 kel post comment

Amazing Show [10 Dec 2009|09:13pm] all_timelow [bri_dance] Heres one of the best photo of ATL that i got at the clifton park show i have videos but they take forever to upload. post comment

[10 Dec 2009|06:12pm] dear_you [heeyxlove] dear you, you talked to me on monday. for the first time in months. and for four days in a row too.. god, i didn't really realize how much i missed you until then. my mind's been a complete mess since that conversation. pathetic.. please, tell me you miss me even a little bit too? i love you, s.k.w. post comment

[10 Dec 2009|05:20am] dear_you [tankgirl9176] [ mood | awake ] [ music | Goldfrapp - Number 1 ] Dear L., I really like you. No, I mean, really, really like you. So what if you're twice my age. I can't help but be really attracted to you, no matter how hard I've tried. And trust me, I've tried. The only way to keep from liking you is to avoid you, and that's hard. You always make me smile, no matter what, with your rather eccentric ways. But, that's part of your charm. Please get over whatever hump you're facing and ask me out! I know you like me! Everyone at work knows it, they've all pointed it out. Seriously, Me post comment

The Glamour Kills Tour (12/6/09) [10 Dec 2009|05:56am] all_timelow [rlrrlrll] I was lucky enough to shoot the final show of The Glamour Kills Tour in Philadelphia. The pictures can be found here: http://www.flickr.com/photos/americanxclouds/sets/72157622832747649/ Comments and Feedback are appreciated! Thank you! 1 comment|post comment

[10 Dec 2009|01:41am] dear_you [samamba] Dear You, I was molested as a kid. There, I said it. Let's see how long it takes me to tell you that in real life. It'll get you to slow down, in any regard, won't it? So maybe at some point soon... Oof. But it's kind of odd- from the way you're talking about your past, it kind of seems like you're hinting that you were, too. How strange would that be? Love. post comment

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